柔柔***’s Blog

当你不在的日子,不在的夜晚,不在的一分一秒, 我是如何渡过的, 我真的不太能理解…..有好多事都是不可理喻的,不可祈求的,因为它是没道理的….因为在爱情里,是不分对与错的…当爱来的时候,不会给予你任何预知,也不会有任何预兆……当爱要离开时, 也不会留下任何预兆,就这样悄悄的离去,无论里头包含了多少的伤心,难过,快乐,温馨,笑容-都一笑而过,就这样…悄悄的离开,剩下的只有泪水,悲伤,难过,遗憾,后悔,和心碎,就算内心有如滴血般的疼痛,也只能默默的承受,默默难过….有泪哭不出来.不但如此,还得在家人和朋友面前假装坚强,假装开心,假装一却都无所未,假装不在乎….但又有谁能明白那心头里深藏着的痛,是用言语无法形容的,因为这样的痛,真的是好难受好难受….

hopefully everythihg gonna be fine….

hopefully everything gonna be alright….

hopefully i wont thinking  about it anymore…

hopefully i can let everything gone….

until now,i still can’t manage my emotion. i don’t know what should i do?i try to take everything easy,i try to make evrything easy,  i try to let everything gone,i try to make myself happy…

but untill now,i still can’t make myslelf dont think about it,i still crazy and sad  for what happen to me…i feel hopeless,i feel sad,i feel vex for all thing happen to me…..nobody can undersatsd my feeling,nobody can help me,nobody can share with me, nobody can give me opinion,nobody can make me happy….because the one can make me happy is not here now….he far away,he not here with me,i really miss him a lot,but who know,only i would feel so….

i wish i can see him now,i wish i can talk with him now,i wish  he is here now,but that all only my wish and hope because i know,he wont be here right now,he dont even know how suffer i’m now…….without him by my side

he is far far away from me,he may doesn’t remember me anymore,he may enjoying himself now,he may have a great time there,but he may din’t know how i need him now…

if he is here,i  think i won’t feel sad,vex,suffer,hurt,lonely now…the reason is because he can make me feel better when i need someone for,he can be my dependant,he can be my everything,i can cry on his shoulder,i can tell him what happen to me….i know only he would understand me in this moment…

before,he always the person stay by my side when i need someone to talk with,when i facing problem in any field of my life, he never let me be alone,i always can find him when i need him,i feel great because i know he always be there for me no matter how….don’t he even know how very special he is….

i wish he will be by my side again by now,i wish he won’t  forget me anymore,i wish we can always be close friend no matter in what consequences.i juz want to let him know if  got any opportunity,i want to let him know how i appreciate him,how i care about him,how i want to say i really need him,how i want to say i really missing him,how i want to say  thanks for everything he do to me…

sometime,a sms with greeting from him already can make me feel amazing because at lease i still know that he wouldn’t forget me even he is far from me now,cause i know i he still care about me,he still want me to be happy,juz like his promise to me will always be there for me no matter how,it already make me satisfy….i already feel great with it…

hopefully i would see him as soon as possible…

hopefully he still like before,always be my dependant,always be my audience,always share  all my problem with me…

beside,hopefully he had a wonderful trip there,always be happy there…..

the truth always so cruel….

make people feel breathless and suffering……

what is the truth behind the smile….if the smile is not from the bottom of the heart……..

it was hurt deep inside….inside of the bottom heart……..

some hurt cant be erase…some hurt cant be forget……..

even how hard you try to avoid it….it stl cant help at all……

some consequences still cant be change………really pain……..

no matter how happy u smile…

no matter how happy u act….

when the night come,the sadness come for u again….cant even avoid,cant even hidden,or cant even pretend,cant even not admit for it……..

some tear will never end coz the pain will never been erased……..

some hurt will never recover coz the heart been broken………..

something cant be turn back no matter how u want it back coz it too late,coz never cherish it when u it was there……..

some lie cant be forgive forever coz it may hurt other but nevermind if u thk it was a good lie…….just can take it as the lesson…..

to remind me no more lie in my lie…..coz it really bad……to teach me to be honest no matter in what consequences……be honest is the best solution……

don’t make an asssumption to lie before u not telling the truth……don’t think other will  unhappy with the truth coz u may  wrong……

maybe telling the truth would be the best solution…not hidden just because u think it must a best solution…..

i wont repeat my false anymore coz i know the lesson is too serious and not the one i cant support……

i wish i can forget all this and have a new life then……….

i wish the truth is the happy ending……..

i dont want any sadness,breathless,suffering,vexed,hurt,heart broken again….

i want my hapiness back…..

i wish i can seek my hapiness back soon….

i wish everything will be fine soonest……….

but it really need time to achieve it………..

coz the truth always so cruel………so hurt……..

no matter how,i really wish u can trust me………..that really important to me…..

and i know nowaday,it really not easy for u being to trust  me again……

but u know.the truth is really not like the way u think about it…….

what u think was wrong…just u never try to believe what i said………

but it ok coz i know………

behind the truth always got many sad,pain,hurt,vex,suffer,heart broken……..

coz it call the truth………cant be change forever………..

如果你不爱一个人,

请放手.

好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,

请放开自己,

好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .

但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,

有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,

但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.

女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,

我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,

我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,

我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，

你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，

你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，

你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，

你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,

好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼

朋友都说这 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
… 我不能睡 …
我不能够 不能够不爱了

愛上一个人……….如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害

放棄一个人……….如此的難過卻又讓人心碎

珍惜身旁的每一个人,不要等到失去了

才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦….

因為愛你.所以放手還你自由

因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾

因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過

因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開如果我還一直深愛著你…你是否還會待在我身邊?

 如果我還一直在乎著你…你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了…你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了….你才感覺的到我對你的好?

As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I cant stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? No….is my ans

You wont let me
You upset me
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forgive>that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

But I hate…
You know exactly what to do
So that I cant stay mad at you
For too long thats wrong

But I hate…
You know exactly how to touch
So that I dont want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that i adore you

And i hate how much i love you boy
I cant stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just cant let you go
And I hate that I love you so

You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

Said its not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I..will be under reason why
And it just aint right

One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me
And your kiss wont make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me…

As much i love you
As much as I need you
As much I love you
As much as I need you

And I hate that I love you so.. soo…

多久了沒有你的消息 上一封簡訊是星期幾
又錯過了與你的約定 對不起真的不是故意
有時候沒辦法陪著你 你總是對我說沒關係
放不下我對妳的任性 對不起不該讓你傷心

有時候 你會讓讓我 儘管我大男人發作
有時候 你會裝作不懂 默默地 留一些空間給我這些事情 其實 我一直都藏在心裡
請你原諒我不懂逗你開心 請你原諒我不懂聽你的心
回想這過去 我學著讓你更安心
別賭氣別任性別放棄 說聲對不起

請你相信我我會更加珍惜 請你相信我我會呵護著你
小小的愛情 卻是我最大的幸運
疼愛的 想念的都是妳
請你相信 一個這樣的我

請原諒我 對不起 對不起

這次我又擔心到天亮
現在你靠在誰身旁
窗外透進來的光
照得心發慌
熬過了失眠的晚上

每次你的理由都一樣
其實我都懂只是不講
把自己弄得很忙
其實是假裝
看你這次要怎麼收場

我說我會是你可以依靠的肩膀
而你卻站在離我最遠的地方
我愛你的心一樣
總是選擇原諒
你有多少借口
除了說謊

如果我不是你可以停靠的地方
我們就到此為止不必再勉強
現在開始不一樣
像路人經過身旁
你也不必裝模做樣
我會遺忘
別再說謊